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2010-12-12T00:10:00.009+08:00

My wedding album

2010-12-09T16:23:00.002+08:00

hurray, today is a nice date haha... i've passed my test after 2nd time of attempt haha... such a nice date to remember. Tom gettin married today, and i've passed my license today. and best of all 3 yrs ago is the date that hub propose to me haha... such a nice way of remembering Tom's wedding date and my license date haha...

2010-12-08T01:04:00.003+08:00

i think i've got a yr plus didn blog liao le... haha... didn even thought that my blog actually exist.. i've become a tai tai for the past 9 mths i guess... reason is to complete my CAT diploma before finding a job. lucky i stil can survive haha... finally exam is here and i think i will fail 1 of the sub, not much confidence.

anyway i wonder who will still come in and look at my blog since i started bloggin a few yrs back i think got at least 6 yrs le ba... the day im with my hub until nw i think shld have at least 6 yrs le haha...

2009-09-10T17:56:00.002+08:00

i really regret asking you. i ask you is becoz you are once my best frien yet you last min back off. forget it, i really dun 1 2 see you anymore. bcoz it really sucks, and im super piss off. i dun even wish to see you appear on tat day. after everything is settle i will delete you from my memory. and delete everything that is abt your stuff. i dun 1 2 cry anymore. no point cryin over a person like you.

2009-08-30T23:12:00.000+08:00

wow it's been 2 mths pluz since i last blog haha... dun really haf the time to blog due to busy at work and alot of things to do. think i will less bloggin liao le. recently being addicted to mahjong computer game haha... will blog again when im free

2009-06-24T21:01:00.002+08:00

today super angry, who do you think you are. tis is suppose to be ur jobscope and not mine, y m i the one who's suppose to contact the manager, since u want to take the credit you shld be the one who's doin this job n not me. dun haf experience nor qualification only noe hw to bootlick. i wonder wat ur bf see in u. i pray tat u get ur karma ASAP juz like wat happen when u go back to ur hometown being robbed by ur own ppl. hate tis kind of cunning ppl....

2009-06-02T20:37:00.001+08:00

i'm loving you more n more each day. especially the look in ur eyes on last sun nite 31 may 09.

2009-05-27T10:54:00.001+08:00

hmmm... long time no blog, since the gathering at bbq i've been busy preparing my wedding preparation until no time to surf net haha... bought LG phone last weekend. last nite went to select my photo. our selection was fast spent 2 hrs at the bridal shop and everi thing was done. the next time i go down will be viewing the layout for my ablum.

was quite unhappy for the outcome, bcoz the fake eye lashes cover my eyes, i cant even c my own eyes. all the pic i saw is my eyes are close. tats y we spend only 2 hrs bcoz i chose only those pic tat i can c my eyes are open. was pretty upset, at the photoshoot the MUA comment tat my gown do not need the push up effect so she didn help me at all, which makes me veri piss off liao. then now the picture are totally ruin by the fake eye lashes. bloody hell... if im rich i confirm request retake again. the life time picture are all ruin by the fake eye lashes. i told dear that on the actual day i dun 1 2 stick on any fake eye lashes liao. i ask the make up artist to do the make up abit not like me but not totally cannt c my eyes lor. think of the pic n the photo shoot im really veri piss off. KNN.... seeing the outcome suppose to be happy but for me im not happy at all.. i keep on grumble... how i wish clock can turn back again, i wun stick on the eye lashes

2009-05-12T17:40:00.002+08:00

my heart is gettin more hatred. i dont feel any luv at all, im countin down towards the day that i get the key to my house. sometimes i wonder to myself, will i ever drop a single tear for my dad. towards him, i only have hatred, the reason i settle down early oso bcoz of him, so that i can officially move out of this stupid house n no longer need to face him.

2009-05-07T16:00:00.002+08:00

1st post in the new month, wat am i busy with recently. went to Bukit Tinggi last weekend during Labour Day, quite fun but veri hot haha.. and the place we stay looks like the castle in europe style haha... food over there is exp. after comin back the next day went to shop for furniture with his whole family. we shop almost half a day. damn tiring, lucky our house come in 2 yrs later if not i think my legs is goin to kill me.

now we are waiting for Kit or Sally to cal us up for the photo selection, and this week goin to his house and select the photo montage so that we can pass it to Ah Boon friend to help us do the photo montage. 2nd thing goin to have a meet up with the supplier for the wedding favors, 3rd thing got to book a health check up appointment which i intend to do it maybe next mth. 4th thing got to select a date for the guo da li which i guess shld be ard end of june time ba. the last thing which i really havin a headache will be the guest list n the sister thing. haizz... i really wish the friends whom i've been close with can participate in my big day. but then again, as wat joey mention before, "you never ask how would you know whether they want to help anot. dun assume it, juz ask it"

are my close friends goin to help mi celebrate my hens nite?? i tot of goin to taiwan for a week with Stacey they all, but then again money counts haha... since Lum n Seng planning to go Phuket for the bachelor nite y cant i go taiwan or somewhere near near like Batam or Bintan oso can haha... i really wish to relax myself n enjoy myself b4 i step into another new step. i wish to go to places i nv been b4 like st james n zouk haha...

2009-04-29T15:31:00.003+08:00

i dreamt of joo gong last nite, hmmm when is the last time i dreamt of her i think is last yr ba. or even 2 yrs ago, dreamt abt her in short hair haha... and we chattin outside the toilet in her house kitchen, if i dun remember wrong haha... although i know she wun cut her hair short but she do look nice in my dream. i dream that we are watching movie together with the group, when is the last time i have watch movie with the group i think is years back le ba. is this a hint from you that i shld join them more often so that i can dream of you haha... anyway the dream is so real juz like we've watch the movie not long before haha... i do miss you, whenever i think of you i cant hold my tears. you are always constantly in my mind. how i wish i got the 3rd eye to see you lol~~~

2009-04-23T19:43:00.002+08:00

after finishin takin the PS yesterday was so shag and i couldn even get up to go to work, so i took urgent leave for today haha.... thinkin back the more i think of Kit the more i think he looks like the Feng De Lun haha... was fun for the PS enjoy myself how i wish can go back take again haha.... i think i'm falling in luv with the PS haha... maybe next time can go back take again probably with the whole family or our 10 yr weddin anni haha...

2009-04-13T21:53:00.002+08:00

after the gathering with Stacey last week, i really should treasure them. they are the friends i have spend with in my sch days. i promise that i will find time to meet up with them and not MIA hehe... hope i can go back to your group

2009-04-12T12:50:00.005+08:00

yesterday went to the final gown selection for my evening gown, in the end not much of the colour or design tat i like. so took back the first evening gown that i reserve when i went there for the 1st time. afternoon came back for the trial make up
veri happy for the effect n i keep on taking picture of myself haha....

like this pic, but the eyes abit side way looking of it haha... n my poor dolphin not only even half the body is inside the pic haha...

inside the car

ghostly pic of me haha...

act cute of me haha...

look so weird haha...

do i look even fierce enough or juz a black face after all haha

both of us in his car while waiting for my family to come down.

2009-04-09T17:40:00.002+08:00

i wonder is it the gers use to protect me, tats y nw whatever things i say out muz be veri careful especially in a small n complicated with so many politic company. my ex colleague juz told me tat she draw a distance from me. she keep on sayin tat other ppl wun think like the way i do, i noe tat everi time i dun use my brain to think of the impact n consequences i juz bluntly say out, although i meant no harm but maybe to other ppl it really matters alot. hw m i suppose to change this where i have survive with this character for so long. haizz... last time in Brady i dun see any polictic like wat i saw in my current company. haizz... is it my thinkin really still at children time or i didn grow up at all or i simply cannt click with those ppl who is much more older than me. looks like next time i muz be a mute ger in work life liao le. i muz only work n nt chit chat or gossip if not more n more ppl will draw the distance away from me even though she no longer work in my company. haizzz.... workin life is so complicated how i wish i still a child live with no worries. i really miss those sec sch days, can i go back to the time where we still studying?? i really dun 1 2 work in this company whom is full of politic, everi thing i do i say muz be careful. im the type tat y cares wat other ppl are thinkin sometimes i really think tat these ppl really think too much. haizzz...

2009-04-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

hmmm... had a long chat wif joey today. looks like tml got to ask dear out to have a chat le. wat shld i do to make u guys come out, have send sms but no definite anz. wat can i do other than sms. call??? well, take a step at a time ba, i tried my best le.

2009-04-05T14:25:00.002+08:00

was watching youtube video earlier on, didn noe that ya lun was afraid of heights same as me sia haha... but 1 thing he keeps alot of facial products in his bag wor, while yi ru likes to keep his own photo in his bag. da dong luvs his appearance alot n he wun allow tat his hair to be messy. haha... saw a video where wu zhun was kissing ya lun n da dong was kissing yi ru, but yi ru keep on rejecting haha... so funny n abit gross lol... yi ru say tat although the 4 of them are quite gd friends but not to the extend of kissing each other haha... i laugh until almost cry out liao haha... sibei funny, yesterday went to follow the pillow which i custom made from the taiwan, have their picture on it wor hehe... the other nite juz haf a dream of them. simply luv them too much le haha...

2009-03-31T20:22:00.002+08:00

had a tiring day. busy keying 46 days of sales into the spreadsheet. faint.... next time shld not find a retail or F&B line job. it's a tiring thing once u are on leave n ur colleague couldn cover for you. then u are goin to die when u go back to office. haha....

thinking back, since last week i start to have this emotion thing maybe is due to Joey's reaction. maybe i mind or think too much le, juz like wat dear everi time say to me. i really think too much or im too sensitive le. it seems to me that i'm a invisible to her whenever she got problem she always tok to Maggie, maybe they are good friends n good ex colleague. but now i noe that Joey didn really treat me as invisible still can chat wif her. maybe is only me that really think too much le.

than came to my cousin, was really hurt when i read her email. she keep on sayin that i have changed in sense of my attitude to her, n she keep on pouring wet blanket on me. i noe she worried for me but wat i need is the support from her n nt keep on pouring wet blanket. 及然她把我说的以问不之 so what for i still need contact with her. i shld not contact her at all from now on. i tot she really noe me but in the end all i can see from her is all the bad comments. i heard enough of these comments, from work n from her. this is the path i choose so y dun u congrats me n not keep on pouring wet blanket. i hafn even married yet n u already curse me divorce is miserable. WTF.... i really hate her...

突然间我发现我真的无法承受那么多的打击。one come after another. it's really veri tiring you know. thinkin back all these years, i really didn spent much with you guys. my world suddenly become only him but no one else. 可能是因为我太依赖他了没有了他我真得无法想像我还能不能自持的住. from not really like him until now i cannt live without him. i did try to make a gathering but it turn out all not successful hw come. i oso dunno haizz... everi time i tried to organise a gathering, the response is always negative or juz totally no news at all. 我真的心毁一冷了，一次又一次的failure. i still remember last time we use to have a meet up on everi sat. but rite now, i still remember there's once i went out with you all, n the words u all tok i totally dun understand. frm there then i realise i couldn walk into the world u guys have. wat APL, n blah blah blah~~~~~ all i totally dunno at all. maybe tat time i give up le. i couldn blame anyone for this but myself.

2009-03-30T21:24:00.004+08:00

finally take back my computer. finally can surf the net can start to DL songs liao haha.... after yesterday at Mandai, i realise that i cant be so selfish even though i quarrel wif my cousin, n so many ppl dun even realise my existence but so wat. i stil haf the ppl who raise me up. from young due to lack of mother love i told myself that next time i want to get married n settle down n haf my own children n give them lots of luv. this has been my aim, yet my cousin say tat i married so early is to run away the issue that me n my dad keep on quarreling. i admit tis is part of the reason also, main issue is i really want to have my own family can't i??
although my pay is low, but i've been trying veri hard to save up money also. i've been thinking n imagine so much until my head goin to explode soon. i think next time i will have senile i will soon forget everi ppl.

2009-03-28T22:24:00.003+08:00

had a change of new blogskin hehe.... was wondering to get a LG Cookie or LG Ice Cream phone. in the end i think get LG Cookie phone is better, as the review is better than the LG Ice Cream.

just saw my cousin reply frm the email, she has i haf change to the worse n i look stuck up. do I??? but she's my cousin she jolly noe me well wat. wat makes her to believe in a guy which i haf never even see him before. wat makes her believe in a stranger than her own cousin. like wat i told stacey, is ALL MY FAULT. my karma is punishing on me.

2009-03-27T12:41:00.002+08:00

saw my cousin last nite at hougang mall, somehow can sense that she no longer want to tok to mi anymore. she dun even want to look at me for the second time. i did try my best, i send sms to her, send her greeting cards as i always does. since she dun 1 2 have anythin to do with me. then shall be, it seems to me tat everi since SH is gone things in my life has change. i can no longer click with my sec sch friends, no longer who i can confide with. i could only blog or rather write in my diary. for sure im a loner. or rather a anti social after all. it use to be my wish to stay together with my friends, go trip with my friends. but rite now, i seems to a invisible after all. no one will ever remember who m i. maybe i shld change my name to Chen Xinyi. she's a ger who no one will ever notice her existence. i think my fate is the same as her in the Taiwan TV Drama. in work is the same as in my personal life. will i ever be remember by my friends or they dun even will remember it.

My heart no longer pumps, no longer looking forward to a brand new day. for me i only noe u wun noe wat happen tml. maybe tis min im here and the next min im gone. tis has been my thinkin ever since the early start of the yr. feel like i've having depression haha... have been thinkin those bad things. i wish i can go back to the sec sch time where all the friends are always hang together. or i rather not to be born in this world. i want to be love, i want to be notice by ppl, but all is not goin to come true.

My heart is experiencing abit of pain, is this a hinting to me that treasure everi min n everi sec i have in my life??? or is it telling me that i won't be able to survive to witness i set up a family of my own???

2009-03-04T21:13:00.001+08:00

whenever i see stacey blog i felt more n more outsider, watever they tok i dun understand a word at all. is it bcoz im the one who let go of everi thing. once mirror broken no matter hw u mend it stil have a scar no longer can be the same as last time.

2009-02-24T10:14:00.001+08:00

im getting abit sian of my current company liao. haizz tot of quitting this job, but my wedding is only 7 mths away cannt lose the income of my study n wedding n honeymoon haizzz... is so sickening. i noe dear is trying hard to let me have a gd life. tats y i oso keep on enduring with this company n the ppl over here. sometimes i really wish i will stay as a child forever. as least baby got no problems only know how to cry n play. haiz...

2009-02-20T16:57:00.002+08:00

long time no come in blog liao. last sun just went down to bridal concept and have my 1st gown fitting hehe... so tiring trying so many pcs of wedding gown n evening gown haha... 2nd time of fitting will be end of next month liao. on the same day i try my 1st gown fitting we also bought our wedding band at Soo Kee. now have to go find my wedding shoes, my wedding gifts and the wine and our bed haha... must settle everi thing b4 the 7th lunar. exactly 7 mths to go for my wedding.

2009-01-29T19:19:00.002+08:00

wat are friends for. to concern you when u are upset, to share laughter with you when they are happy, to share sadness when they are sad. i dun haf any friends at all
i'm a person with no tml. my world don't exist for tml. wat will happen to me for tml nobody noes, maybe i might juz slp n slp juz like slppin beauty forever slpping n no waking up. i lost my friends years back. this is the path i choose, i nid to continue on my own. y shld i honour my promise to other ppl when other ppl dun even honour their promise to me. why m i the one to give in. why... i'm so sick of this world even though i haf the one i luv the most. if i haf a chance i rather nt born in this world. i rather join my frien SH in the other world. maybe the day will soon arrive.

2009-01-24T19:42:00.002+08:00

so fast tml is the chinese new yr eve liao. another yr past again, tis yr is my ox year wor haha... tot of having a ox baby but i dun think is possible for me to do tat haha... anyway wish everybody a happy chinese new yr HUART AR~~~~~

2009-01-15T16:46:00.001+08:00

countin down to knock off time, today is super borin i finish my work and nthing for me to do liao haha... and my aunt is comin back from perth takin the mid nite plane so shld reach singapore by tml early mornin. lookin forward to their return from perth. tis time round they are stayin for ard 3 weeks hehe... can c my long time cousin liao, later my uncle is goin to say me again haha.... every year is the same lucky only let him say once a yr nia haha...

2009-01-12T09:30:00.002+08:00

back from Kukup, had a great fun over there. play 1 whole day of mahjong hehe... and follow them to see the guys playin the fire cracker. back to work again so sian, now been following the taiwan drama you are my destiny not a bad show hehe...

2009-01-09T10:48:00.003+08:00

happy 23 birthday to myself, hehe... today on leave to celebrate my bday wif my dear. later he fetchin me up in another 25 mins, after that goin to Lovelyinn place to collect my item then after that i think is goin to Royal Plaza located at Scotts Road to have lunch buffet hehe... following that will be catching the Red Cliff 2 movie at Ang Mo Kio hub. i think after the movie maybe have a early dinner b4 proceeding to my lesson at CPA house, which is so sian. haizzz... wat a day to spend. a lesson on my bday. anyway almost my wish has come truth, except i never win a 1st prize in 4D b4 haha... anyway i got to go prepare liao. may i have a beautiful day for the whole day.

2009-01-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

no time to blog, last nite busy catching up with the little nyonya show haha... countin down to my 23rd bday hehe... and 8 more mths to my wedding. after my bday the following week goin to bridal concept and have my 1st gown fitting hehe... abit nervous n anxious, still dunno wat design i want. his sister n 2 nephews is tagging along also haha... his sister say she 1 2 go kpo abit lol... i saw the display gown quite nice looking. maybe will reserve that piece or wait for sally the co-ordinator to recommend ba. hehe...

2009-01-01T20:48:00.002+08:00

today is the 1st day of the yr 2009. so fast tml sch reopens n i got to start my part time course oso. lucky i only take up 1 course this yr haha.... so sian... next fri is my 23rd bday, times flies so fast haha... after my bday the following week goin to have my gown fitting hehe... juz nw went to a few places to check out the places which we want to take for our outdoor shoot. i found 1 place quite nice but got to walk up the slope, veri shack leh imagine i got to wear the outdoor gown n walk the way up haha... got to discuss with the photographer as time comes. next weekend goin kukup hehe... can go there play mahjong liao haha

2008-12-31T21:49:00.003+08:00

today is the last day of 2008 another 3 hrs will be yr 2009. hopefully next yr will be a better yr. today the company dun even noe haf half day anot, i juz take half day leave. who cares whether have half day anot. so sucks want. i hope i can find a better job next yr. last of all i wish everi one a Happy New Year. i wish to save up more money so that next yr i can travel to 3 places haha... and i pray that the economy can go up again. haha... let's wish everyone have a healthy body n earn lots of money. yeah~~~

2008-12-30T23:21:00.003+08:00

today im so boil up, was told by my accountant tat i nid to do the stock take tml, and hello tis job is belong to the cost control job hw come become our job scope. take so high pay cannt even handle 13 units is it. then might as well quit ur job la. dun act cute n teh teh in front of the GM la. 2pid bitch go back msia n give birth la, i hope ur bf dump u ar. such a cunning n idiot pig. i hate tis bloody company im goin to tender my resignation after CNY. tml new yr eve dun even haf a half day off, wat a 2pid company benefit n welfare sucks to the core, cannt tahan them liao, only noe hw to act pity in front of our GM. y not u go back ur own country n be a actress might be a better choice for u. dun come here n bully us.

2008-12-25T00:00:00.004+08:00

hey that's my dear and me inside the transit

Inside the Graunda PLane before departing to Bali

Such a beautiful bathtub isnt it, i spent almost all my stay in that bathtub.

Private pool that is shared by the 3 couples staying in this villa

2008-12-23T13:56:00.004+08:00

here's the volcano opp the restaurant tat we had our lunch on the Friday 19/12/08 which is the 2nd day at Bali. And is at a mountain. so cold over there machiam like in cameron highland haha....

There's a lake whereby can see it from the restaurant. a beautiful lake after all

This place is juz beside the restaurant but alot of flies though, so irritating.

Lots of trees n clouds, it's nice to stay in these cold or rather cooling place. and a nice view after all

2008-12-22T14:32:00.002+08:00

greetin frm Bali here, comin back to Singapore in mid nite time. hehe... nw usin Dear Epc to blog, now we are located at 1 of the restaurant opp SOGO in Kota town. will update more pic when i come back hehe..

2008-12-18T15:46:00.003+08:00

2day no work bcoz im goin for my holi haha... im goin bali haha... so excied nv been there b4 wonder hw does it look like. the important thing i want to know is whether the villa we are stayin dunno got any bath tub in it anot haha... anyway i will take more pic n upload in here hehe....

i'm bringing the pink colour hello kitty wallet which last time Sabrina bought it for me hehe... and inside i found 1 small black card which state Sabrina, Stacey, Soo Hong, Siew Ling, Cindy and my name in it. and it states Friends Forever. when i see this my feeling is like we are no longer friends forever. haizzzz how i wish can turn back the clock to sec sch time. i miss those days. i dunno y our group will disband, i juz dun understand.

anyway erm... m i 1 of u guys also haha... its like long time nv gather together i feel like im not 1 of u ever after since SH not around. haizz... i saw the pic u guys take together i really got the feeling tat im no longer 1 of the group not to mention the APL Gang. haha...

2008-12-12T10:53:00.002+08:00

why are my friends thinkin stil so immature, y still stuck at sec sch time. can grow up anot. how old liao, suka suka angry then dun anz my cal n reply my sms. y u muz bother so much whether they wil gossip abt u anot. ppl will change want wat, i juz dun understand lor. y the thikin stil so immature. i really had enough of these kind of friends liao. i rather i dun haf any frien at all. really hard to be a sandwich de lor. i had been a sandwich for so many yrs i had enough of tat liao. really lor. for some purpose i really rather i dun 1 2 invite none of my friend at all. she dun 1 2 c them dun 1 2 sit together with them how m i goin to organise a table like tat. i hate being a ger. their thinkin n emotion is too strong n stubborn oso. haizzz forget it i wun contact her anymore. anyway she no longer my best friend since we left sec sch. from now on u go ur way i go my way. i wun bother u any more. i will juz take it tat u are juz the same as soo hong tat disappear from my vision.

2008-12-06T10:28:00.002+08:00

countin down towards my bali trip which is another 12 more days to go haha... cant wait to go there man lol

2008-12-05T17:08:00.002+08:00

is friday again, another new month. and the yr 2008 is goin to end soon. haha... and the date of my wedding is comin nearer n nearer. im thikin of quittin my job, but i got to consent my aunt n ask for her advice whether is it a gd idea to quit my current job. haha... actually i dun haf the intention to quit but after i realise the HR team over here keep on forcing ppl to attend the christmas party next tues (9/12). but im hafin my exam on tat day and some more got to go to Loyang or Simei there as my GM lives there. and some more the party end at 11:30pm and the next day stil got to work. bloody hell i already got my reason and they stil keep on insist me to go. i told them i will buy the present but im not goin. they say they need my presence and not the present. shit them la, i dun even like the ppl in tis comp wat for i muz go attend the party when i noe i wun be happy at all. if joey is still here i dun mind goin. but she has left tis comp. haizz now even our PM oso in trouble think she quittin soon. tis comp alot of evil n bad ppl. not a place for me to stay on.

2008-11-29T19:20:00.002+08:00

usin dear mini laptop to blog quite weird. the keypad is so small hard to type oso. suppose to study for my exam that is on next tues but somehow no matter hw i study the things juz couldn get into my head. haizz shldn haf take tis exam in the 1st place. abit regret now, since i noe i will fail my exam so wat for i study so hard. i might as well concentrate on my tax exam better. at least i think i got hope in my tax haha... now dear helpin Seng out in his wireless router while i surf the net haha... hungry liao waitin for dinner lol

2008-11-27T17:21:00.003+08:00

today suppose to have lesson but i dun feel like goin haha... even though i did feel abit better but my head somehow still abit pain. i really dun feel like continue studying liao leh i really want to give up. i dun like the idea of studyin part time. i hate my dear i hate him. all his fault. bcoz of him i go study i hate tis world. y not i juz follow soo hong footstep wouldn it be more nice. wun be bother by so much things. wun feel so frustrated. sometime i wonder y the one who pass away is not me yet her. im juz a nobody.

2008-11-26T11:07:00.002+08:00

today is another so cal free day. nthing to do so far haha... wat i want in my life. my wish is so simple but yet cant be fufil. all i want is to stay at home and be a housewife or so call a tai tai haha... but i think tat only applies to rich ppl ba. i dun haf any O level cert. cant go anywhere also. want to work in government oso muz haf local certificate. haiz... i really dunno wat i want. i juz noe i dun like to study and i dun 1 2 study any more. perhaps i really regret for not goin to Poly to study. bcoz i want to get marry early, tats y i dun 1 2 go poly and study. nw think back without the local diploma cert i cant even go to government and work. haizz when will my dream come true. please let me strike a 4D or Toto then i can be a tai tai liao haha...

2008-11-25T09:23:00.003+08:00

2 yrs ago on this day i lost 1 gd friend, and funny thing is Dear bike frien ROM on this day also. and 2 yrs later his NS friend getting married today. is it a gd day to get married on this special day. i dunno, only know that today is a unforgettable day for me to remember.

2008-11-22T11:07:00.002+08:00

these few days no time to come in n blog. today is a Sat got to revise for my exam again so sian. yesterday had a small dinner with the Finance Team. Anyway is Ray & Mike treating us for a celebration due to our new system we have done well haha... yesterday i sit opp the 2pid auntie so irritatin haha... and she was like being left alone since all of us are tokin to other colleague no ppl tokin to her. feel so gd when i saw her being left alone. yesterday the dinner i think is super exp lor. i order a Soup n i tot is the kind of western soup and it turn up is a normal soup with 4 scallop in it. and i cant finish all so i share with Maggie haha... and i order a Laksa and u guess hw much it is. is exp lor, 1 pot is $21.90 and not much of ingredient juz a few prawns n 2 or 3 ta pok only. and we drink beer last nite. tis mornin juz lao sai only haha... i was preparing to get lao sai liao since my gastric or stomach has a veri low milk tolerance. plus the beer i think later sure goin to toilet again. The place we go yesterday is cal Lotus Grill.

2008-11-18T09:59:00.001+08:00

im so tire today, only slept 6 hrs and i think i didn slp too well on the pillow and nw my necks hurts so much. so sian yawn~~`

2008-11-15T15:20:00.000+08:00

hehe juz upload 1 pic n test c whether it works anot

2008-11-14T16:14:00.002+08:00

TGIF, today super free nothing to do due to our weekly closing finish yesterday so today not really much of things to do. and next week Ray is treatin us dinner for Lynx implent celebration haha... Maggie is going wor so i think maybe im goin also haha.....

2008-11-12T17:35:00.001+08:00

looks like my blog is not an every day thing any more due to dun haf the time to post in the blog. haha... looks so sian i cant wait till 2009 so tat my study can complete haha.... dun even noe can pass the T7 paper anot. haizz whenever i think of tat i feel so sian liao. hmmm next mon shld i go for my lesson or shld i go attend the wedding dinner. im so confused, hmmm maybe i shld try n do the question myself tis sunday n c if im able to do it on my own. then i no nid to attend the lesson liao. i cant wait to look forward to the Bali trip also haha... juz 1 2 get out of tis fuck up place n relax myself, without troublin myself time to go for my lesson blah blah..... feel so slppy anyway time to go back soon haha~~~

2008-11-09T15:50:00.002+08:00

feel like crying liao, wanted to do my revision for the T7 paper, and i realise i dun even noe where to start n my mind was totally blank. was prepared to take a retake exam liao, i totally got no confidence at all for this paper. although i only need 40 marks to pass but it seem so hard to me when i look at the pass yr exam question was a mistake from the start to take this paper. shld have take this subject together with the T5 which is the most difficult paper also. haiz.... i really haf the heart dun 1 2 study this subject and let it fail. since i noe i cannt do the paper at all juz waste the money only. if i dun pass this paper i got to drag my course to 2010 then finish. which is really waste of money. 2pid exam 2pid qualification 2pid world. i hate this world.

2008-11-08T11:54:00.002+08:00

damn sian, goin to lesson again haizzz, i 1 2 play mahjong hahaha.... i miss playin with Marcus n Rachel, last nite when i was abt to slp somehow i drawn back to the scene when Marcus is in the coffin. Haizz... Marcus i miss you this mahjong kaki too much le. how i wish i got the power of seeing things tat will happen then i wouldnt lose 2 friends in 2 yrs time. looks like i could only play the mahjong game in the viwawa liao. hopefully we can have a fixed mahjong kaki haha... ya rite, in my dream lor...

2008-11-07T17:33:00.002+08:00

yesterday finally finish keyin all the 13 outlets into the new accounting system, and im doin it all by myself due to Maggie is on leave as she need to bring her youngest son for a check up. had a feeling i might fail my T7 paper, dun really understand wat is the whole topic is abt. haha... the lecturer also cannt make it, juz keep on spoon feed us and nv really tell us to try ourself. haizz... i really dun like to study, why i muz make myself so miserable juz bcoz of a stupid cert or rather a qualification. haiz... study sucks...

2008-11-05T21:00:00.002+08:00

it's so tirin, the whole day has been rushin to key all the sales into the stupid system, and the Mike keep on rushin me to key all till up to date. im a woman show again tis time round due to maggie is on leave as her young son is admitted to hospital need to pay attention to him. lucky nthing much tat i can help her do except to key all the november sales into the lynx system. yesterday was Mel bday, did sms her but she like no repl to me. so i think forget it, since she dun 1 2 tok to me anymore for wat i still go sms her. suan le~~~

2008-11-03T09:53:00.003+08:00

sick of workin life. i still prefer student life haha... so bored rite now i still got time log in to blog, muz be really veri slack rite. waiting for my purchasing manager to call the store man to deliver my boxes up for me to pack my Receipt roll in it. and i've been waitin for the boxes since last week till now, yet no action has been done yet. i'm starting to get abit piss off liao, keep on asking her since last week till now, yet still nowhere to see my boxes. haiz had a veri strange dream last nite abt my dear. hahah... 2nite then tel him provided if he pick mi up from my lesson tonite, or else got to tel him tml nite. happy bday SH

2008-11-02T12:27:00.002+08:00

yesterday was someone's birthday, same day as my nephew Tuan Kiat, and this afternoon i receive a sms from my friend his wife just give birth to his second child 2 days ago. i was like omg his wife is the same age as me and his 1st child is already 2 yrs old. faint y nowadays got so much young couple gettin married so early and giving child so early when their education is not so high. compare to the uni graduates they are like quite old then get married. haha.... this is my own theory. surrounding me the age almost the same as mi is either get married or already give birth liao. while the age of my dear's they juz recently get married and their age is like 30 yr old. bcoz they are uni grad. hmmm.... got to start revisin for my exam next month. so will wait till i have time will post again. and tml is 1 of my late friend bday. happy bday to you. may u be reborn n be a beautiful n healthy person. cheers~~

2008-10-31T09:19:00.001+08:00

long time no blog, stop blogging since last yr till now. either i was busy to blog or juz simply lazy to blog haha... anyway stay tune im going to change my layout soon or rather stay with the same layout or juz add some new things in it. didn noe tat bloggin still so in. lol~~~

2007-03-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

so long didn come in liao sia... recently it hurts my heart to know that once a guy is married u no longer can contact him anymore. even though u n him have many yrs of friendship, you oso cant contact him anymore. i dun understand at all why cant guys and gers cant be friends after all, haiz so sad. maybe i nid some time to get over this, as wat he say is impossible to stay contact with so many friends, well lucky i still gt keep in contact with some of my primary school friends and secondary friends. i have lost the chance to keep in contact with him, nw i dun wish to happen again. i shall try my veri best to contact those friends

2007-01-01T15:02:00.000+08:00

hey it's the 1st day of 2007, a brand new day, hopefully all the bad luck go away and all the good luck come to me haha... it's a kind of sad thing to me in year 2006 something big happen to me which i cant take it, and i almost fainted on that day when i send her off in mandai. i cry until almost fainted u noe, haiz anyway it's over she's gone she won't back to me and call me and shout at me and comfort me. haha... and i'm turning 21 yr old soon, much pretty soon and my actual birthday is next tues 9 of jan haha... yeah~~~ i finally turn 21 and i can go casino go watch RA and do lots of stuff haha.... i'm having my 21st BBQ CHALET tis coming wednesday at PASIR RIS PARK PEOPLE ASSOCIATION. i'm so excited you know, 1st time take chalet ma, some more celebrate i turn into 21st leh. of coz excited leh, haha... even though hafn chinese new yr yet but i already got red packets to receive leh, of coz from my aunts lor haha.. although i only fork out $50 to buy the BBQ food, but im really grateful leh. if my ah ma tio 4D again then i gt $$ to take again haha... let's huat ar~~~

2006-10-30T20:25:00.000+08:00

finish watching the AI QING MO FA SHI, it's damn nice man haha... i like that show wor. haha dunno when got the next 183 club show again haha uploaded the song GAN QING XIAN, had a veri meaningful lyrics in it. hope you guys like it haha

2006-10-25T19:04:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time ever since i updated my blog, haha... so lazy to update actually, another few more months to go before graduate from ITE BISHAN. and that's cool shit man, haha... cant wait to grad from tat stupid sch. i dunno to continue schooling or go out and work. been studying for 1 and half yrs, abit sick of studying already. look around my friends all are either working or studying poly. haiz think i shld go out and work liao. then can buy tons of vcd haha... and tats my wish ok. lol

2006-06-20T14:02:00.000+08:00

recently im totally mad haha im in love with ming dao, he's so cute haha... age 26 this yr born in 1980 feb 26 lol... juz upload the MV but will block my updates sia haha but bo bian got to ask my dear to help mi adjust liao lol song title is cal hao ai ta hao xiang ta hope you guys like it lol

2006-05-06T21:42:00.000+08:00

so sian now sch starts liao, left another 9 more months to go haha... and i will be graduate from my ite liao... thinking of going back to study makes me more sian lol... and dear is so busy still say me demanding humpf~~~ this week only meet him 3 days nia lor due to the big GE. and end up we cannt go in dim sum tml, haiz got to wait for another 2 more month. very sad leh, the carrot cake very nice to eat lor, i miss the dim sum. haiz so sad man~~~ headache now got to go le go and rest liao lol will be changing my blogskin soon hehe...

2006-03-31T10:26:00.000+08:00

yeah~~~ finally my exam is finish liao wahhaha.... finally can relax myself liao, im going to chiong my dvd session liao n my maple game of coz haha... if i ever got the time lol haha.... dear also return back to singapore liao but then hor he sick leh cannt meet me so 2nite he den come n fetch me after work. but hor i dunno want to go to the fazer outing anot leh... sibei sian leh i scare later they go out until late late sia... think i better come back home n watch tv den tml early mornin den go meet dear better hor haha... as i always tend to slp veri late de. hopefully tml got mahjong session with marcus they all haha... so long nv play liao sia.. due to my exam n dear's genting trip. and now im looking forward to the hatyai trip which is at thailand haha 1st time going up there sia sittin on the bike some more haha... hafn tel my dad wait til next wk den tel him i can imagine his words already, that's why muz plan everything ok den can tel him haha... anyway i got the prepaid card wat he can always call me or i can always cal back de ma so no nid to worry, i have trust in my dear's bikin experience he have go for so many trips liao some more he also won't dare to chiong so fast de la he also scare accident de later nid alot of money to repair his bike wor... ok i will stop here got to go to my housework den go watch my dvd liao and in the afternoon got to go and work liao ciao will ask my dear to make the music to be able to hear soon haha....

2006-03-29T12:02:00.000+08:00

sian later going back to sch to take my final account exam for year 1. sibei sian leh where got exam starts at 3pm and ends at 5.30pm this is the 1st time i take this kind of paper lo so borin so now surfin net later come back got to study for my statistic liao still hafn touch 1 unit yet haha... but i think will be much more easier then accounting lo, statistic i got confidence then accounting dunno y haha maybe is because all are formula some more the formula no nid to remember one. haha... and my dear has return from genting liao but then hor got to wait to friday or saturday then can meet him liao. see he so bad thurs oso dun want to meet me dunno friday got bike already anot if not im really goin to fly back to catch the last episode sia dunno want to take cab back or take the train back haha... or maybe i take mrt to ang mo kio then i take cab back, think will be much more cheaper wahahha... muz be mad liao la haha... ok la i gtg le wish me good luck in my accountin exam hor... i have tried my best liao le can pass then pass cannt pass then get a B grade nia haha...

2006-03-25T16:53:00.000+08:00

nex week my final exam going to start liao sia, and then cannot see my dear for 4 days liao so sad, he going to genting with his family members and i cant go sia got exam bo bian gt to stay at home to study. im very stress sia for my accounting got a feeling i cant get a A grade liao. haiz sad sia, just now study depreciation n disposal thing haha... my songs cannt be play anymore liao sia dunno can go where upload haiz nw veri boring so come n blog abit haha... after checking all my things got to go back n study again liao le haiz so sad hopefully can go to hatyai next mth haha... cant wait to go sia, finally got chance to go liao haha

2006-02-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

omg i have stop blogging for 1 whole month times flies sia haha... been busy with my cousin for the past few weeks. they came back to spend chinese new yr so of course must accompany them so got no time online also haha... abit miss them sia i even cry when i send them off at airport i really cry haiz now when i think of the scenery i will always want to cry. but then what to do anyway hopefully can go to australia again this yr haha... im goin on a diet soon very soon haha... hopefully by june i can at least lose a few kg ba haha....im so fat sia see liao also scare haha... make a bet with my uncle. promise him that when he came back to singapore next yr i will slim down for him to see haha... hopefully can slim down ba. muz have the determination. haha... is time to change the format of my blog liao sia is so hmmm how to say sia so outdated haha...

2006-01-10T14:03:00.000+08:00

had a wonderful 20th birthday last night haha... went to have steamboat at beach road there. then following went to pitstop and cut birthday cake so special sia. all thanks to fazer guys. haha... without them the night won't be so shiok man. haha.. and i'm planning for next year birthday liao. 1 more yr to go man. haha... and thanks for my dear dear also haha... really thanks alot sia. is more fun than last year 2005. haha... and i can't believe i turn 20 sia. haha... hmmm must be more responsibile, and must act more mature in thinking cannot be so childish in action because some piggy guy don't like it. must change my thinking all this. haha... hmmm... im planning for a chalet and buffet for next year 21st birthday haha... and i of coz will invite fazer guys, my best friends, my relatives, and many more haha... hopefully is a good year after all haha...

2006-01-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

wow so long no post liao sia. and is 2006 this year. time flies so fast. and im turnin 20 next monday haha... so shiok hehe... bought a new hp sia, is a birthday present from him haha... sweet hor haha... hmmm anyway nt much to blog oso. kinda of lazy haha... will be updatin my song soon. but dunno wat song i want to put leh haha... ok la. stop here

2005-11-27T18:11:00.000+08:00

this few days really alot of things happen to me. i don't know whether am i the one who cause the problem or wat. anyway i have give hope liao le. regardless of what result it is my heart got no reaction. i don't know am i trying to bluff myself or am i trying to console myself. sometimes i wonder what i like in you. u are not romantic at all even when im angry you just don't know how to cheer me up. haiz i really don't know. maybe after all we are not really that suitable ba. let's give ourself a break ba. if u really wish to end it, well then i won't stop you also. hopefully you can find a better girl in the future ba. hopefully won't be like me so immature so childish. find a character that is the same as you, same interest as you, same age as you will be better. once a mirror is broken no matter how hard you try to put it back, it will never regain the same thing again. this is what my cousin that tell me before. the feelings will never be the same again once the mirror is broken. what i'm going to do now is concentrate on my studies. don't think i will be going to the christmas this year liao le. no reasons just don't feel like going. will i feel sad when the thing really happen. i don't know, i only know i will control myself not to drop any tears from now. if can maybe we should really give ourself a break then start all over again when we really know where does the problem lies on.

2005-11-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

thanks for readin my blog lo. who badmouth u or say anything nasty abt u. i totally gt no idea at all lo. is u who dun 1 2 contact mi alone. i LAN LAN lo. i cant say anything. ever since u nv contact mi at all, i gt alot of problems also lo. who can i tel to. NO ppl lo. normally is u who are there to share my problems with mi gif mi advice bt now leh. u are not even there lo. i totally gt NO FRIENDS at all lo. who can i tel to i ask u. i dun even tel my bf my things lo. even when im sad or wat i just write inside my blog if nt i just keep inside my heart. i gt no ppl to share with lo. aiya forget it la, forgot u now already got ur ite friends liao le. u gt any problem can just tel them and me leh, i dun even haf a single friend lo. a close friend oso dun haf lo. last time use to be u but now since u dun bother to contact me. den i just take it our friendship ended at 2002. the yr when we graduate from xinmin secondary. our friendship is gone. no more you in my memory no more this person. u are just a HI BYE friend to me. from now i wun b bother abt ur thing ur life anything at all. i totally dun gif it a damn liao le. even u being bully by ur 2pid bf or whatever shit it is i oso wun gif it a damn.

2005-11-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

think im going to cancel my bike thing soon. haha... can feel that there's a change in me since i return from australia. now c bike like machiam no feeling liao. gt bike den bike lo no bike den no bike lo. seldom purposely wil go n bio bike nowadays. tis is wat i sense in myself. i like australia there. haha... feel like movin there leh haha... bt nt nw la, i mean when i reach 30+ or 40+ go there enjoy. there really can relax sia. i go there onli for 13 days i already gain so much weight liao le. haha... i think hor if 1 day my ah ma really go liao i think im goin bersek. haha... i cant imagine without her in my life. she's more close to me. miss my small little cousin jing. and i miss the sky over there n the weather. k la, another 2 more mths goin to c them soon liao le. haha... they are comin back for chinese new yr wahahah... cool isn it. although my cousin can b irritatin bt den i dote them the most dunno y oso haha... k la. wil write again when im free.

nowadays keep on addicted to my maple game haha...

2005-11-04T09:32:00.000+08:00

it's been so long since i last post. think im going to find a new blogskin haha... n im so excited to share my excitement to him haha.... got lots n lots of things to tel him haha...

is my 1st time, i feel so cold n
i felt so high and excited. i almost can feel it's coming
i feel so high up so excited n so lookin forward.
i felt so giddy but after i done it i felt so release
but im stil so cold in it. can u guess wat im tokin abt haha

its............. Aeroplane that im tokin about. haha... it is my 1st time sittin wat haha
it's been such a long time since i play my maple so im goin to play it today haha.... and i borrow 3 storybooks from my cousin. they are harry potter haha... 3 thick books sia. hopefully can complete readin when they came back to singapore next yr. n i think i gain alot of weight sia haha... keep on eat n eat haha....well think im goin to find a blogskin soon, den ask my dear help mi do liao le haha....

2005-10-14T12:55:00.000+08:00

i gt say by somebody in friendster n i dunno who is it. is it my best buddy who betray me. other then her who wil be so bo liao go around barkin like a dogs. n onli my best friends know my secret n is already in the past for wat stil nid to go around tellin ppl abt it. im tire of it. if it is u den from now on u no longer is my friend i wil treat u as my FOE. i hate being betray. i tot i could trust u yet in the end u betray mi. tis is onli my conclussion, anyway i stop tellin ppl my secrets anymore in case i kana betray again. once bitten twice shy all ppl cant be trusted. i dun even noe my tis dear can b trusted ant haha... although i really trust him. tis matters already make mi feel sad liao le. i dun wish to bother abt it anymore. u 1 2 tel hu den go ahead ba. i onli can say u are a childish person who forever won't grow up. childish....

2005-10-12T18:25:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to u dear. today is dear de birthday wor, cant celebrate wif him arrghhh workin ma, bo bian. anyway im goin to tel u i goin to book you 3 days from next wk haha... so next wk gt 3 days u MUZ spend the day wif mi liao leh, cannt meet ur sec sch friends for badminton nor go to fazer outin liao hor hehe...

argh so sucks man, exams comin soon n its really pretty soon. and next saturday im flyin off to australia wahhaha... to visit my cousin n aunt. haha... so nervous sia, 1st time flying off. cant imagine my nervous look. and the air ticket have been booked liao le. wil be settin off in the mornin so gt to wake up super early. goin for 2 weeks sia, wil u miss mi ant haha.

yesterday ask dear bo liao question haha bt veri bo liao meh, dun think so leh. maybe to u is ba haha... anyway i noe wat is the anz liao haha... anyway thanks for ur advice lo haha... i won't be bother for such a nonsense ppl or rather a jerk. goin out barkin and commentin for other ppl's look when he himself dun even dare to put his own picture stil dare to say until he himself veri nice lookin.

well, i will be changin my blog song soon. once i finish my exam haha... maybe the blog wil be changin the layout oso haha but muz wait til i come back from australia 1st haha.. k so wil stop here den. haha...

2005-10-06T17:12:00.000+08:00

so long no blog liao sia, and someone say i too short n too fat.... :( sobzzzz definitely nt my hubby haha if he wana say mi he wil b sayin he himself liao wahahah... well, i dun take it to heart de coz the fact is im really short n fat wat. but well, the person who say mi wil have her retribution n i believe it. i believe in karma. so now i really prayin hard to change myself. stop sayin ppl bad words behind their back, coz i dun 1 2 have any karma for myself or for my family. muz learn to forgive n forget den can stay happy. n the person who say mi arent tat pretty also lo. stil dare to say mi so KNS. humpf~~~ and her word write until machiam like dunno wat sia, cant even read properly well, nvm stil younger den mi wahahah... i think i change quite alot since last time til nw. i mean when i was in secondary sch den ite den til meet dear. all this times i think i change quite alot liao whahaha... i will change for the better again. haha...

exams comin liao sia, yet i stil haven go revise for my work jia lat man, tis time die liao n sure die until veri jia lat. well, wil stop rite here n go back study for my exam liao. n im so excited sia, coz im goin to Australia to meet my cousins n aunt haha. so happy n tis is the 1st time i go overseas sia wahaha... nv been out of singapore b4 other den go to malaysia haha... tats difference from tis time. haha... i scare sia sit inside the areoplane, scare can feel im so high later dunno wat haha... k la. will blog again when im free haha...

2005-09-22T17:23:00.000+08:00

so long didn post, muz post a happy thing ma, haha... monday, my teacher say i gt a cute n lovely voice when i speak from the microphone haha... so happy hehe...more funny thing. while dear was buyin my food i went to buy socks n the guy say where is my husband. i was like huh -_- haha i hafn even married to him yet. hmm nt so soon to settle down la haha. think stil gt a few more yrs to go ba. need savings oso ma, my bank is totally dry up liao where gt money to go married haha.

Keys to my heart, some of them like quite true sia haha...

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.Your risk of cheating is low. Even if you're tempted, you'd try hard not to do it.You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

2005-09-07T16:41:00.000+08:00

i copy this out from the ladies forum alot of meaning.

This is what Oprah had to say about men...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you fromheartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationshipthat's not meant to be.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a manbefore you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was nottreating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".

A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then heprobably is.

Don't stay because you think "it will get better."

You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.

If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.

He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour.

Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...

even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...

compromise is two Way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...

thereis nothing cute.

About baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...

a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...l

ook for someone complimentary...

not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...

when a man always know where you are,

And you're always readily available to him ?

he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women...

You'll make someone smile,

another Rethink her choices,

and another woman prepare.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person,

an hour to Appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

2005-09-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

well, im doin my homework n listening to chinese song, the song which i like and i can listen it alot of times haha...im listenin to andy lau song. Wang Le Ying Chang n Jue Bu Fang Qi. in this 2 songs there's alot of meaning really. if u noe tis 2 songs u shld noe wat im thinkin~~~ finally let mi find out the lyrics of this 2 songs. i feel finally my heart was dropping down n nt so heavy after listenin to tis 2 songs.

绝不放弃

听不清喝彩声音

只有你的泪像海浪汇荡在我心里

看身边茫茫人群究竟谁对我还有意义

一直不能忘记

我的勇气曾失落在这里

如今我找回我自己

却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离

我绝不放弃永远爱你

时间空间挡不住不灭的情意

你值得我用一生追寻oh oh

我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定

你是我最依赖的抚慰

我绝不放弃

chorus: 一直不能忘记

我的勇气曾失落在这里

如今我找回我自己
却又失去最深爱的你在风中远离

我绝不放弃永远爱你

时间空间挡不住不灭的情意
你值得我用一生追寻oh oh
我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定
你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃永远爱你

现实命运推不动思念的坚定

你是我最依赖的抚慰我绝不放弃

我绝不放弃

忘了隐藏

我一直都以为可以把你轻易忘记

只是你的背影一直还在我心底

天天想你夜夜哭泣不能自己

想要逃避已经来不及

说什么海角到天即说什么今生永不离

你的一字一句一直徘回在心底

天天想起夜夜回忆眼泪再继续

应该放弃找个人代替

告诉我如何把你忘

告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上没有爱没有思念的地方

告诉我该怎么藏

告诉我如何把你遗忘

所谓地老天荒

只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

chorus:

我一直都以为可以把你轻易忘记

只是你的背影一直还在我心底

天天想你夜夜哭泣不能自己
想要逃避已经来不及
说什么海角到天即说什么今生永不离

你的一字一句一直徘回在心底
天天想起夜夜回忆眼泪再继续
应该放弃找个人代替

告诉我如何把你忘
告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上

没有爱没有思念的地方

告诉我该怎么藏
告诉我如何把你遗忘
所谓地老天荒

只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

chours:

告诉我如何把你忘

告诉我如何把你隐藏

放在我的心上

没有爱没有思念的地方
告诉我该怎么藏告诉我如何把你遗忘所谓地老天荒
只是让一个人孤孤单单让一个人心荒

是否情路太难你让我一个游游荡荡让一个人心伤

2005-09-06T16:50:00.000+08:00

i dunno wats wrong wif mi, bt im nt like u i cant think within 1 nite, i need time, i need to cool down. i wun meet u for quite some time perhaps. i dun think u can tahan anymore of my temper. i tried my best not to vent on u bt things just come tat way n i just acted so rash which i myself couldnt even control. i wish to be alone for quite some time without you by my side. maybe its gd for both of us, meantime u can go n do watever things u wana do i wun bother as long as u happy in it. mean time i wil concentrate on my studies well u concentrate on watever things u do. hopefully can celebrate with u on ur bday ba~~ if nt den wait for mi come back frm Aust den say ba.

我的心意碎了，人也累了，一切都不想再动了

2005-09-04T13:58:00.000+08:00

haha i feel like laughin sia, haha... i juz delete my last yr post which contains sad memory, coz i dun wana go n remember those memory anymore. n i realise my post abit like Piao Ling sia haha... c liao oso abit erm feel abit funny haha... now i noe hu is the guy tat really treat mi well, in fact is the one tat i have been for 1 yr goin on 13 months haha... can c from my post from sadness to happiness haha... well, gt to go bath le, c later gt meet u ant if dun haf den i wil continue delete it my past yr post. thanks for sayang mi so much n i really treasure it alot wor. :p thanks dear muack~~

2005-09-04T13:10:00.000+08:00

such a boring weekend, *yawnz* its a rainin sunday, haha... n im goin back sch tml again haiz so sian, be it a work or study its forever so boring de, y huh... i oso dunno y, hmmm onli can say is being a adult its so boring sia, haha...i prefer to be a kid, no worries haiz so sian... wat to do neh... n oh shit de, cant even find my best friend now. wonder where has she disappear to. hmmm... well, im kinda lazy recently or rather been really lazy really. haha...

2005-08-24T19:37:00.000+08:00

well, looks like it's been quite awhile since i last blog. what have i done recently, busy studyin wat else can i do huh. hmm... tis wk is a 1 wk holi for mi, tats great isn't it haha. k got to study for my common test for next tues, when i tot i could have the money to go take my bike prac. oh for goodness sake how on earth to find the money to go for prac. haha.... searching for sponsor to sponsor mi go bike prac sia haha.. ya rite in my dream huh. tats rite haha...k well, juz finish my series 1 of sailormoon DVD haha. isn't it great. oh boy tats in my imagination when Tuxudo Mars is so hunk haha... juz like Chen Lin haha... faint, when can i stop dreamin n wake up from the reality haiz how i wish to b a kid sia, i dun wana b adult, it's forever so stressful. im nt childish k. IM NOT CHILDISH, im juz innocent tats all, tats my character isn't it ma? hmmm... i hate u keep on sayin mi childish when everi time i acts like a child. haha... tats mi ma, i like the way i'm. haiz y muz i change bcoz u ask mi to haiz... i like being a childish ger haha... bt sometimes being a childish ger looks abit hmmm weird to mi when i go out wif my buddies. hmmm... whenever i goes out with them y i always gt the thinkin tat they are stil so childish, bt when im wif him eh wat kind of mind m i thinkin, bt hey i have change alot OK. sometimes being childish wun die rite. so y cant I. so irritatin humpf~~~ well, hack care liao. got to go back n study liao haiz so sickenin n borin life....

2005-08-09T14:43:00.000+08:00

wow, since like i have been a long time didn come in to blog liao le, well, kind of lazy to blog haha...juz came back from cameron highland, tis time round the holidays are short sia, n dear's bike broke down on the way going up haiz, sad sia, haha... bt i did enjoy myself except kana gif mosquito bite sia, so many red dots haha....n i oso take a pic of mi sittin at rachel's S4 bike haha, wait til the pic is up den post inside here haha, is cool man haha.... hopefully next time can go again haha... i wun mind go cameron again n again haha.... the places is cool, so far the onli place that i like is cameron highland haha....KL is a borin place haha... is hot n jam nothing special to shop oso haha....n i have uploaded a new song cal "LING" sing by Ke You Lun. dunno hu izzit haha coz i find the song quite nice after watching the MARS. n chen lin was so cool sia. haha... ridin the fazer wouldnt mind watch again haha... which i juz did hehe... n 2day is National day sia, n oso 1 yr anniversary wif my dear haha... so fast 1 yr liao. hmmm cant imagine sia haha.... k, well i wil stop here liao le, wil catch up wif u again ba. gt to go do my home work which i hafn even done yet. kind of lazy to do so sian, coz holiday mood ma haha....

2005-07-25T15:56:00.000+08:00

so sian sia... haha 2day gt S&W n i dun wana go so go take mc from polyclinic haha... so sian sia... ah dear doin course cant disturb him while den im playin the maplestory game lo haha... yawnz times flies so fast hehe going to 1 yr liao sia... so fast hor.. haiz own him too much of ren qing liao le, PC money stil hafn pay him sia, den the sailormoon vcd wow seh, where can i find tis type of guy in the world. haha i tot gd guys all extinct liao le, bt im wrong stil gt some in the world haha.. ah dear is 1 of them lo. haha... well national day itself he's on duty so celebrate on the followin day. haha... well, hmmm grow up ar, mentality grow up or wat neh?? haha... haiz can i dun grow up i wana b children haha... children no headache de, adult gt alot of headache sia, worry abt money la, den relationship la, den blah blah blah.... lots to worry abt. haiz...k la i go back play game liao le so borin....

2005-07-16T10:45:00.000+08:00

think its such a long time since i post inside here haha.... wat have i been busy wif??? busyin wif sch work lo den wat else... den busy playin the maple game haha...so dun haf time to come online. yesterday nite went to perlin n haf dinner n guess wat on the way back saw mel sia haha my cousin haha... so coincidence sia.... think later after doin my home work i den go amk find her since she's workin there 2day. haha... well in my class it happens to have a ger which i dislike so much sia she's damn irritatin n damn fan lo... dislike her to the core. haha... think she gt a irritatin face pluz her character sucks too. she's juz like a follower everi where we go she oso wana follow even to the toilet. although tis doesn happen to me bt im helpin another friend to say it out haha... coz i think quite a few of us cant tahan her way too. she's too idiotic n irritatin maybe she's stil a kid ba haha... stil dunno hw to think unlike my sec sch friends haha...well gt no choice gt to do everi thing i can to get rid of her...well gt to go do my home work liao stil hafn done yet. hmmm today dunno wana go join joo gong at bugis ma??? maybe gt go ba haha i oso veri long no c them liao le haha... especially stacey u c haha... she meetin sab n xue ni at around 2+ bt i dun think im goin dun feel like seein her face haha... so i better meet them in the evenin time haha...

2005-06-26T12:40:00.000+08:00

weekend is goin over soon, tml is sch day again, haiz...so sian, sch starts no more goin out late late le, muz come home early get ready for the sch the next day. fri nite was a gd nite sia, met up wif a lot of female riders, gt chilli, nicholoasonbaby, narada, myusha, nedomar haha think tis all ba, all tis are the ladies riders tat i hafn met yet de all. a big thanks to finix for waitin me at the dam hehe....tire tis 2 days bt enjoyable haha...complete my homework bt muz revise abit on wat teacher teaches us ma hehe bt i cant remember any leh, maybe i was day dreamin haha k im goin to get my lunch den bath den if can meet him earlier liao le cya... :D

2005-06-20T16:53:00.000+08:00

so tire today sch reopen, n guess wat my new class contains onli 2 guys n the oldest guy is the same age as dear dear sia, born in 1978 haha...n onli a few ppl born in the same yr as mi nia sia. saw jia liang today haha...n happen to see kai xian oso, juz nw on my way out from sch saw her bf...n i feel so hungry once i reach home. coz from mornin i eat until juz nw i reach home i den eat wor, if nt hw come i wil feel so hungry haha...n my time table come out le. Thursday is the day tat i wil reach home late. 5.15pm den dismiss from sch, so sian haiz... n tml dunno go wat Bukit Timah dunno at where n onli our class is selected. so damn borin...got to go photocopy paper later on, maybe in the evenin when i feel more cooler ba. nw i feel so tire sia, feel like slppin bt cannt if nt later in the nite i cant go back slp haiz... tml is a borin day for me again haha... bt times flies really fast, imagine next yr of 2day i wil b in 2nd yr liao le, n is the last yr haha... hopefully i can graduate frm it n move to poly. if nt go back work lo...earn more money ma.

And imagine quite a few junior from my sec sch is the same class as mi. haha cannt imagine tat rite i oso didn think of it. well, dear nw attendin course so didn msg mi all tis. stil waitin for him to haf a good tok wif him wor, we lack of communication n everi time i wana tok to him i dunno hw to face him onli noe hw to use net, which is the wrong way n tis doesn help in our relation wor. i wish next time i gt any problems i could juz tel him in face. hopefully our relation stil can survive ba. stil gt hope to amend it. go do my sch stuff le, n rest oso haha...

2005-06-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

finally come back here le, pc juz came back to me tis mornin. n i didn noe i had made u upset again. tis 1 wk i haf been thinkin y i keep on treatin u tat way n i really dunno i myself oso feel terrible oso. haf u ever regret ur decision ma??? i really duno. u are a type of guy which most of the gers would like. i dunno y i keep on makin u upset bt how m i suppose to change my character when i haf tis character since young. i noe im a irresponsible person bt wat can i do i haf tat attitude since young. who can change mi. lack of teachin maybe tats the thing. n im always slower den other ppl, n u noe im the person tat toks wif out thinkin maybe im straight forward tats y. n maybe tis is the reason ba. i keep on wantin to haf a chance to tok to u, bt always cant find any chance haiz... i do knows tat 1 day u really wil explode ur temper n the endurance u oso wun b able to take it. i do noe of tis circumstances. i dunno when wil tis day arrive bt den i cant c anymore of future onli present bcoz of the way tat i treated u. even if 1 day, there's a ger standin in front of u tat likes u or u like her, i dun even mind bcoz i dun even treat u so gd. keep on makin u upset, if ever u can find happiness 1 day i wun mind. coz i noe the fault lies in mi, i dunno hw to b a gd gf of urs.

the leaving of mi, wouldn't take away the sky of urs.

it wil onli b a part of memory of urs, n the road we go wil b even longer den nw.

hmmm, forgot wat is the poem le. onli remember a few phase. heard tis phase from QIAN NU YU HUN. xiao qian say to shu dai haha....

2005-06-02T20:16:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i blog, well due to my computer was down, n there was no way tat i could blog so therefore, gt to miz my blog wil b back in a few months times. c ya

2005-04-21T18:50:00.000+08:00

i felt so stress up, i gt to pay lots of things, my hp bill, internet bill, my dental installment, my bike practical, even nw i stil gt to help pay my home utilities. i gt lots of burden liao le, plus ITE has accepted mi, n now i oso gt to pay my sch fees myself. i cant even breathe. for now, i 1 2 earn money as much as i can. so for now, i wil start to find job liao le, no matter hw many jobs i work. n i wun b able to meet u as much as last time. for mi money is more important den everi thing else. either i gif up my bike or my studies. u cant understand wat im sayin den i say 4get it liao rite. so y stil bother n ask. i juz cant understand it. since u duno wat im sayin den dun bother to know la. kaoz... wait til im in a better mood den say ba... tml i oso dun think i wil b meetin u....

2005-04-20T09:26:00.000+08:00

last nite outin was so fantastic haha...quite a few female riders turn up wor... seein so many female riders tis makes mi feel like chiongin to get my 2B license haha...i haf fail 5 times le, bt den well, i wil jia you de, there's definitely 1 day i wil pass my prac 1 de haha tml wil b my prac 1 again liao le haha....so nervous bt den last nite went to buy the guards le, to protect my knee cap n my elbow. i dun 1 2 fall down again sia, i wil jia you de hopefully can pass tml haha bt i dun think so ba, i muz think on positive side n nt negative side, muz haf more confident n tats the way man... cheers to those ladies riders out there...i wish myself all the best haha...

2005-04-10T22:16:00.000+08:00

juz went to c dear de blog, n from last yr til nw, we seem to haf alot of arguein especially the first few months when im so stubborn n my temper is hot too, bt nw do we stil haf the same problem again or another problem ne, let me c wat haf i change for the past 8 months. i felt so silly last time haha... oso dunno y i haf the reaction the last time. arguein abt the pic he takes wif gers all tis bt den well, now i noe tat he can b trusted n i totally trust him. wat more could i b worry abt. n the promises i haf given all i haf done it sia... cannt sit on other guys de bike, n hmm cannt meet guys ba.. is tat so haha so tirin

hmmm i haf change the word 'dun tok to mi' tis words, which he dislike alot de haha tis is the onli thing i haf change other den tat wat haf i change so far, discussin abt meetin ppl, other ppl, all tis we haf discuss rite hmm so now gt to change my character liao le haha... i seem so bad for the first few months. guess now i could onli change for the better, tml he's goin for his thailand trip while im goin for my practical 1. i stil feel abit nervous abt it too. going slp nw le tml early mornin goin for my dental checkup den go temple pray liao le... muz remember to come back in one piece. dun 1 u 2 haf any injuries all tis & tat...dislike him to go so far especially on water festival is so dangerous when i heard kester tellin him tat it wil b dangerous so ride carefully. it gives me creeps abt it. anyway im goin to brush my teeth nw le haha....

tokin to keane nw. he just had his accident yesterday, fracture his wrist, broken knee & groin abrasion funny is his dick oso muz do dressin. i was askin him stil can haf sex after recover ma. haha so funny if cannt stand den jia lat liao. den he wil b a tai jian liao le haha...oops seems like im so evil sia...haha

2005-04-09T21:34:00.000+08:00

whenever im sad, i go to ur blog & saw those things u post last time, it makes mi feel more sad & guilty i dunno y bt i always cry. im sorry dear i keep on makin u so stress makes u so piss off, i try to change myself k. i nid time to change my mentality my character oso. pls forgive me....my hearts hurt too everi time make u so unhappy...too tire le im goin to slp le. he's always on my mind & the promises i have make i have done it. i nid more time to change my character. tis is all build up since young i cant change overnite....

2005-04-09T20:43:00.004+08:00

y are we always arguein abt money neh, if u always being so piss off, y nt from nw eat the meals at home, i dun mind goin home to eat de lo, is u hu always wana eat outside, if u wana save money is fine wif mi ma, next time juz fetch mi home on time to eat my dinner & u go home eat ur dinner den everi thing is solve le ma, the late is my habit is secondary sch til nw le, u 1 mi 2 change is hard nt 1 day can change everi thing de ma, if u dun like to wait den next time dun wait for mi, since i already get use to it le, u like being to be punctual or even b punctual earlier den other ppl. 4 mi i haf already get use to my own timin le, u 1 mi 2 follow urs is abit hard, nt i dun 1 2 change myself i did try to bt den well im stil the same, if i can change y i always late for work. haiz since nw im nt workin maybe we can meet on fri & sat lo, the rest of the weekdays u can go home & take ur dinner den can save up alot of money liao ma. i myself already felt so stress up le, we always argue bcoz of money if tats the case i might as well gif up my study go work full time hao le. haiz so for now we meet on weekend hao le. maybe is gd 4 both of us oso. den u no nid keep on being so piss off & everi time argue wif mi liao le, i oso dun like to argue wif u. gif each other more personal time ba, u gt so much friends waitin to go out wif u. maybe on weekend we den meet ba. we wil tok again on tis lo. i already felt the pressure haiz....maybe we shld meet abit less wil b better for u & i. i dun even noe 4 my character u can tahan how long, gt a feeling tis relationship won't last long. as wat u tel mi abt my character last sun. my metailty is tat stupid is tat naive is tat childish, wat u 1 mi 2 change. love the person hu they are & nt the person hu change for the sake of another. if for gd well, i of coz wil change bt den again time is concerned, i nid hw long to change myself i oso dunno.....maybe in future or a few yrs down the road ba....my mind is always thinkin, maybe u are right, i keep on assumin too much assume tat things wil work out the way i wanted it. well, im wrong, totally wrong, haiz if i gif u too much pressure, we meet lesser lo, i wil contribute money bt as i say drinks or any dessert i wil pay or we go on dutch wil b more better for both of us ba, i dun wish to argue abt it anymore, dun wish to make both of us sad. since u goin on thailand on mon mornin gif tis 3 days both of us a rest ba. i noe u are stress abt money. next time go out less stay at home often ba. sorri to make u unhappy so much i try my best & do whatever i can to make u happy k.

2005-04-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

it's me again, yesterday went to ubi & book my practical 1, n the day of my practical is nearin bcoz is next mon & it's the same day as my dental appointment juz tat different timin, i book in the afternoon hehe...so scare & nervous sia, after all i so long nv touch the bike liao, i scare i might 4gt hw 2 throttle all tis, & especially the hand brake tat keep on makes mi fail my practical de, ubi de hand brake is nt like dear de leh, i oso dunno y, i hope can pass ba, after all i learn so much frm dear liao, haha he say gif mi 10 chances, if i stil cannt pass, den i can 4get abt ridin liao le haha....i oso agree wif him hehe...

2005-04-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

yo, finally come back to blog liao le, haha i haf come back from cameron since 1 wk le, bt den i gt no time 2 blog, so now, come back n blog lo, keke....juz nw went to east coast n cyclin, wow tats so shag sia,dear say my balancin n turnin k le, shld go n book my practical 1 soon, haiz juz nw rainin den go parkway there sit down n tok, hmmm if i dun change my mentality n my habit n character, soon dear cannt tahan mi liao le, n he wil b like carol de bf, say buai buai 2 mi le, haiz i try 2 change lo, since dear say if it's for gd den y nt change, haiz so scare 1 day he cannt tahan mi he wil leave mi, looks like i muz stop thinkin abt tis 1 day, if nt really comes true i surely jia lat de, k im goin 2 eat my dinner le, nw waitin for dear de pic den i can upload all inside my gallary :P n dear is plannin to go cameron again on may, haha.... n tis time i muz definitely remember to bring my torchlight n my mp3, if nt along the highway im sure im bore de hehe....

2005-03-22T19:55:00.000+08:00

juz nw went to try dear de bike n den wow lao it was heavy lo, more heavy den the 2b bike, n my god de hw m i goin to take class 2 license if it's heavy sia, haiz oh ya i hafn even pass my practical 1 yet, n i think so far already think im mad n crazy already haha...from sharin the experience in those ladies forum n wow all of them are like so clever sia, muz take them for example den i can take my 2b well n haf a determination oso. k let's count 2 wks from now, i shld b able to book practical 1, den renew my membership le. i wil jia you jia you de, all the gers wil support mi de rite. haha...so thick skin :P

2005-03-20T20:22:00.000+08:00

i've been thinkin shld i go learn my bike ant, bt den my glove haf throw away liao le, im scare im like last time cant control the bike well n cant balance it well, seein so many gers tat ride, if i stil dun go n learn den someone wil say, *u dun even haf a bike license i dun understand y u inside sbf doin wat* tis phrase i wil always remember bcoz it was say by shoei. yes n it is him hu say mi
bt den wat abt my dental payment i stil gt $700 hafn pay yet. haiz wat m i doin to do, i noe tat my cdc account stil left $90 which means i stil can learn a few practicals bt den i haf fail 3 times, n im pai seh to go n being laugh by the instructor or those ppl hu are learnin their class 2a n class 2. n no ppl pei mi go learn all the while gt dear pei mi go here go there, bt nw if i wana go learn bike no ppl pei mi go wor, wat m i suppose to do haiz shld i go n learn ma, dear has always encouraging mi go n learn n i think he wil definitely support mi go learn de, bt den i cant concentrate sia, eg the close throttle open throttle clutch the gear all tis kind n cdc de bike de brake is so hard to brake sia, haiz wat m i goin to do, alot of ppl haf been encouragin me. bt yet haiz i stil dun dare go n learn. i already gt one scar on my hand liao le, wat if i stil gt another scar den wat m i suppose to do sobzzz.... n i wun b nice liao le. a nice body juz gif mi ruin like tat. teach mi wat shld i do. haiz n im scare i oso dun haf any future so wat gd reason shld i gif myself to go n learn bike??? haiz.....if i really 1 2 go n learn den i shld learn balancin my bicylce well 1st b4 go learnin the bike...haiz....sad, sobz....vex n confuse....

2005-03-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

i noe someone is regret knowin me, u can choose to back out now, i dun mind, anyway i noe myself well, im a person wif no future if choosin to leave mi, i dun blame u, i did say b4, tv is my favourite thing which i likes, plus u gt too many appointments n u cant keep on askin mi to join which i dun like rite, i noe u are upset wif mi, bt wat can i do, since u need gf tat can accompany u more often den u go find 1 lo, go find a gf tat can accompany u everi min, everi sec n everi day. i 1 2 enjy my day, dun 1 2 argue wif u, anyway dun think tis wk wil meet u up, since u gt so many appointments which u cant miss any of them. so let it b lo, u go do ur stuff while i go do my stuff, i dun bother u le, u continue go use ur computer ba. bcoz i noe u wun watch tv de as i noe u dislike watchin tv shows. bt i like u cant stop mi.

2005-03-05T12:47:00.000+08:00

sobz i juz kana sack from the tan tock seng hospital reason is tat i do things too slow liao le sobz im born to do things slow de ma wat can i do wor, tis is the 2nd time liao le, m i destinated to work as a sales girl rather den work in a office sobz im really sad, my heart is like being stab into pieces sobz and now im sick due to nt drinkin enough water sobz maybe im stupid enough yes n i agree i shld have go die the few yrs back, and i wouldn have the pain rite now, no friends to talk to and where have my friends gone to. they have disappeared since the separation of our sec 4. all gone totally gone, now wat state m i, if i had known tis situation i shld have stay at loyang there my colleagues all there. there are much more fun and i wouldn b so sad now, all bcoz of the 2pid nitec, bcoz of u the 2pid nitec coz mi lost the job tat i like. i hate 2pid nite. now wat m i a ghost or a half dead half ghost i totally no mood at all, i dun feel like eatin i dun feel like anything rite now, im dead a person tat is totally no feelin at all. sobz... haiz wish i didn born in tis world to have so much of pain